I am the worst at this blogging Sh*t.

Hello all,

Here is to hoping that there is an "all" to address.
I am currently coming to you from Young Playwrights Inc.
one of the many jobs I have been holding down in the past year.
The beautiful thing about being in the arts is that you can just
never have enough jobs. For me its not awesome theater jobs,
like say playing "Ophelia" on Broadway, but I am chock full of straight
jobs, though YPI is a pretty nice respite from bartending for uppity
Upper West Siders. I long for the day when I don't NEED a regular job
anymore, but how to make that happen?!?

A friend of mine and I are going to begin (Tomorrow!!) to work on a
theater piece that we have loved for a long time.
I am hoping that we can parlay it into something absolutely
wonderful and present it to the world as a complete and moving
piece of work. Although we are only work-shopping it right now, I am
hopeful that we can find a venue for it. Its a brilliant piece. Just brilliant.

But how to differentiate yourself, in NYC of ALL places, when there
are so many people trying to promote their art? I am not sure, but I
am willing to learn as I go. I have so many friends that are actors and seem
to hinge their success and self-worth on audition panels, their weight, the roles
they play or the money they are making. All of these things, to me, seem burdensome.
Maybe I am a control freak (though I am fairly sure I am not), but I want to be in control
of my own destiny. I want to make my own art and share my own voice. The idea of sharing
theater pieces I love with an audience is the reason I wake up in the morning. What could be more rewarding that sharing what you love with others and moving people through the miracle that is art? I am excited about this. I am excited at the prospect of having a life in the theater.
I am not sure how it is going to play out and I have no idea when I will no longer have a 'straight' job, but I feel that my time is coming sooner rather than later, though I feel like I have been waiting a long time for this! My move to NYC was as painless as one could possibly hope for and I have been blessed in many ways. Although I have only been here for about 9 months I have met some wonderful and talented people that I couldn't be more pleased to know and I am taking some classes that are helping me loosen up and shake off the armour one naturally builds up from having to put their dreams on hold in order to pay bills. I am excited about my theatrical future and can only hope that my enthusiasm rubs off on those around me.

Its odd, I really intended the tone of this entry to be a bit more comical, but I guess these are
the things that have been on my mind, the past few weeks, and I wanted to share. I will let you know how things go with our workshop and I will promise to write more, if only to win back the few loyal readers I had for so long.

Cheers,
~M